Just rumblings. :)

Well, apparently I don't have time not only to cook, but to blog either. I have never studied full time and actually cared about results. Right now, I do, and I do again. So, I have no life temporarily. No time for cooking and experimenting either. I abandoned the whole idea of being a vegetarian, since it simply doesn't work in a family where 2 people eat meat, and one doesn't. So, temporarily the hell with it, bring on the steak.

I have been surviving on Tim Horton's combos that I split to 2, and eat through the whole school day, and then come home in the evening absolutely ravenous. This gotta change if I want to ever lose that baby weight I accumulated. A few things I noticed about myself: I absolutely hate to eat cold lunch unless it is a sandwich. I have to have my morning tea/coffee and a good breakfast in a quiet atmosphere. Otherwise I am good for nothing through the day. Therefore, I have to eat out for breakfast, or I have to pack it, buy my drink at school and eat it there. 

So I am going to find sandwich recipes that are healthy, not very perishable, and are edible. And hey, maybe my vegetarian lifestyle will creep back into my life.

It's hard to believe how much my life has changed. I am not exactly an extrovert, I need quite a bit of my quiet time, but having people around all the time makes me happy. It beats being stuck in a little cubicle for most of the day doing sketches and calculations that drive me slowly insane from loneliness. Now I have to talk a lot, plus I have a son (that talks a lot), and a career change which scares me and thrills me at the same time. I haven't been depressed since I left the IT industry, and at some point of time, I thought that depression is going to hunt me through every minute of the rest of my life. Big change always takes courage or despair. Sometimes it is both. As Russians say: "we will live, and we will see" (поживем - увидим).